A - she. A - soul. A - scared heart full of shambled insecurities got caught in the net of love. Where she once never wanted people in her life, she ended up having a pretty darn good swain around. 

On her quest to be alone - a rigid loather - she ended up entwining so many hearts around her - now they are stifling her. Or is it just her being so paranoid ? A hollow heart filled with compassion, they carried her just to throw her. She shattered. Nothing new. She’s been disposed of like that. The funny part is - the disposal was never by the enemies but by the ones she was the most devoted to - the one she was unclad with - the one she loved - fucked her aura so bad.

Things were so good why did they change?

I was having so much euphoria - I was on the ride to just go up and up and up. WHY DID IT CRASHED? WHY AGAIN? WHY ME? 

She was again the joker, in the circus of relationships.

Love got toxic, she got apprehensive, they got rusted, she got wasted and the rapport?

Halted.

I loved them so much. They were my best of friends, I loved them so much. What did I do wrong? Why did they go so cold? Am I the jinx my bully used to call me? Is it because I am a fat pig? Am I unlovable? 

I-Hate-You, ALL OF YOU.

I will leave, snap the same way you use to do. I will tear this fuck-ship the moment my semester ends. I will never look back. 

I thought saying goodbye would be impossible, now that I had them so close, they were so lovely, I loved them no less - but How did my land of fragile homes caught fire? Why?

The joke is over,

The love is long  gone,

Empty talks - mouths sealed,

Heavy hearts - obligated gestures

Altruism robbed,

Let's start the war.

I have left everything that started pinching and sucking the organic radiance of my delicate heart. I met you a year ago, so leaving you will be the hardest but staying is killing me. Have a nice life amigo’.